I KNOW it’s only a hug, but it was the first time seeing him in person after he was told that I have a crush on him…and we had texted the night before, so I wasn’t sure if things were going to be awkward…of course I’m waiting for myself to somehow make myself an awkward mess…

I was on my way to lunch and he was out on the floor watching someone…I’m making my way towards him and in my head I’m like…

So we approach one another…and he hugs me…and I’M FREAKING OUT on the inside…

But on the outside I’m calm, cool, and collected.

We stood talking for a while, then I told him I was on my way to lunch…so we parted…and I’m still acting cool as I walk away…but my face is like

So…MISSION ACCOMPLISHED! Didn’t make myself awkward and was pretty damn normal for once.

But I’m just so freakin’ happy because of how quickly things have turned around…so now everytime I think about him…

And he still might be banging the boss, but I DON’T CARE BECAUSE I GOT HIS NUMBER!!! 

Kind of a weird day at work…I was just derping around all blah-like. I already had it in my mind that it was time to move on…like always. And then my co-worker and him were walking by my register and she’s giving me that “up to no good” look and I’m staring at her and she’s staring at me and I’m avoiding eye contact with him and we just randomly start talking about working tomorrow and another co-worker was there and it was kind of like one those awkward(LEGIT. awkward) moments that usually happens in some television show. Anyways, she tells him that she’ll tell him more tomorrow…and he’s like alright…and they walk away. So she is still giving me that up to no good look and I know I had this awkward look…so I started to talk to my manager.Time passes and she sneaks up and is just giving me that face…so I’m looking at her like

And totally thinking

‘Cause I KNOW she did something…and sure enough…she tells me that she was telling him that a “friend” is interested in him and is finding out his stats. Turns out…he ISN’T banging the boss!

YES!

Awesome right? So she tells me that his cut-off limit is 21. I’m 19, but really mature for my age…and that’s what she told him. Even though I want to be like

because she basically kicked me off the EDGE…I’m totally like

However…there is always the possibility of rejection because of my age and I don’t drive…which sucks, but it totally understandable at the same time. So depending on what happens tomorrow…it will either be a long, awkward day…or an exciting one. I think she’s going to tell him that it’s me…but we’ll see. If it’s rejection I’ll totally be like

ON THE OUTSIDE…but on the inside:

Lmao. Not really….but all I know for sure is that it is going to be one hell of a nerve-wracking day.

My life.

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That is all.

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MY CAT DOES THIS ALL THE TIME!!!! <_<

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He’s really nice, funny, and pretty easy on the eyes. He’s about several years older than me…which is cool. I didn’t really expect anything to happen between us…and one day another co-worker and I were talking about the crush and she tells me that he might be banging our boss(the head honcho)…and she’s old enough to my mother…and well…not that attractive. I’m not one to judge in the looks department, but she’s not in the best shape…so when she told me that, I was like:

‘Cause it’s pretty nasty…but I didn’t think anything of it…and the crush grew…so everytime I seen him I’m like

In my head-of course…and I ALMOST built enough courage to ask for his number, but chickened out. So today, my co-worker and I were talking about him and she confirmed that he is indeed…banging the boss…

Which is cool…? And not to sound conceited, but me in comparison to her:

Me:

Her:

Even then…it didn’t really bother me…a crush is crush…Until I got home and told my friend about it(if he’s reading this, he knows who he is, ass!) and he immediately began filling my poor mind with AWFUL IMAGES AND THOUGHTS of the boss and the crush being together and now I’m like:

 So everytime I see him OR her I know I’m gonna be like

But it’s whatever…and I’ll be like

‘Cause if that’s what he’s into…then I definitely don’t stand a chance. What a sucio.

However, there is always the chance that my co-worker is lying to me because for whatever reason, she thinks I’m going to switch teams-which of course is never going to happen…

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